double major in overthinking and worry, minor in night crying
this man has been decapitated and all you have to say is “physics!”??? wow….
New Zealand is a fun place to live if you don’t like doing anything ever
In other news, I asked out Ridiculously Attractive Girl. Just for coffee, idk.
"Inara’s Shuttle of Love by Bambootais $10 today at ShirtPunch TV (3/10) .
Okay, I’ve committed to it now. S concurs. Just kind of crying from grief/relief idk. I don’t want to go to orchestra but I will because it makes me happy and because I’ve already spent $10 on a damn bus pass so I’m not going to waste it.
I don’t know, it’s kind of the end of a 10-year-long dream and I’m scared of the future and I’m kind of disappointed with myself, and just kind of angry and aggrieved that this wouldn’t have happened if I didn’t get sick - if I hadn’t had to drop out of university in 2008 because of being ill, I would have achieved it and I don’t know this is one of those rare times when I’m having a “why me/this isn’t fair” moment, fuck mental illness.
It’s okay because I have other exciting prospects ahead… and whatever happens, I’ll still always be a musician, I’ll still always be able to love music and study music for fun in my spare time and maybe write music when there’s no pressure on me to be perfect/no restrictive parameters/no deadlines… but I’m still kind of grieving idk.
At least it’s kind of over now so y’all won’t have to listen to me whinge about it for much longer.
ah yes finally a ice cream shop for me